I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I seem to be writing daily posts about nothing. It's like I wanna say something, but I don't have a way to explain it. Eh, I don't know.

I watch sappy movies and get depressed about the current status of my life. I know it'll get better sometime, but I'm gonna have to be the one to step up and start making things happen for me. It seems all I do is work, and sleep, with rarely anytime to do anything in between. I hit the bi-weekly poker game and that's always fun, but I like to gamble so that's a given. It seems as the kareoke night has moved from RJs on Bay to The Watering Trough on Wednesday nights, so I'll try to get over there because Mark is trying his damnedest to get me out there.

Over than that stuff I've been trying to hang out with more people as of late. I hadn't hung out with Nick and Joe and them in the longest time so it felt good to see them the other night, whatever night that was because I can't remember right now. But I'm beginning to realize, in High School I always talked to girls and my few guy friends, but after I started exclusively dating, I really only had my few guy friends and people that I'd just talk to occasionally. My only true friends, are the ones I still have. You know who you are obviously. You're the people that I actually attempt to hang out with, I know plans don't always happen, but at least the effort is there.

Well, I have friends, but I wish I had love. I just love the feeling. And I really need to get away from this boring life situation. I realize that I'll never find another person like Lindsey, that's because there is no one like Lindsey, she's definately one of a kind. But I would at least like to meet someone else I can connect with.

Alright I've laid enough on ya, and if you're actually still reading this, you're cool.