I've been feeling very lonely lately. I wanna do stuff, but when I finally get up enough energy to call somebody to do stuff with, I suddenly don't feel like doing anything. It sucks. I don't know why. I really wanna go hang out with someone inparticular, but I hate rejection and I've felt it to many times before from her, so it seems that that's out of the question. Ehh, fuck it.

On another note. I've come to the realization that I have absolutely no clue what a healthy relationship consists of. I don't really have any good examples of a good relationship in my life as all my relationships with people I love/loved are really fucked up. Also I'm not quite sure their people I've loved have a good sense of what a healthy relationship is other than reading about it in a book. So what the fuck does is a healthy relationship anymore?? Because obviously love does not conquer all, and I'm fucked for life.

And one day god woke up looked at our world and said, ah hell, you guys are fucked, I'm going back to bed. the end

WooHoo. Tomorrow is Halloween!!! And the Media Play is actually allowing us to dress up. I'm gonna be a thug. That shouldn't be to much different than what I normally dress like. Originally my plan was to just dress in normal clothes and claim to be an Annoying Customer. But I figured management wouldn't like that. So I'm just gonna be a thug. WooHoo!! Happy Halloween Biotchs!!

To quote a modern day poet.

"Shake It Like A Polaroid Picture"
-Andre "Ice Cold" 3000

That says it all baby.

So . I was looking through the book department at Media Play yesterday and I found The Book Of Answers. I was like. what the fuck? So ok. I'll give the book a shot. It's about a 500 page book with a different phrase on each page. You ask it a question and then open to a page in the book to get your answer. It's kinda creepy because I asked it some tough questions and actually got coherent answers. So from now on. screw the magic 8 ball. Goto the Book!

Ok. Relationships are really really weird. Especially around this time of the year. Everybody seems to be looking for something new. I see two of my friends going through what I had to deal with last year around this same time of year. But then I see another two of my friends that are being chased by 14 year olds. Excuse me! 14 and 1/2 year olds. God Gawd, that's scary. This is just a crazy time of year. And as for me. Ummm.....well, I won't discuss because I'm too busy right now and I might have something more interesting to do, yeah.

Just a reminder to my friends out there. 10 WILL GET YOU 20!!!

WooHoo!! Blue Man Kicked ass. Definately the best concert I've been to in a while. Or ever for that matter. The opening acts were kinda lame but it gave everyone time to talk. There was a cool 70s rock cover on violin though and that was cool. Blue Man Group teased a lot of covers last night including Ozzy's "Crazy Train". And Jimmy Page. They did however close down the show with a The Who cover. it was just an awesome show. We had to change who was coming with us to so we traded in tiffany for josh. Well not really a trade but tiffany decided not to go and sold the ticket to josh. It was awesome though. Then we had breakfast at the texan which we decided was a bad idea after we got there because we were all pretty tired. Gavin almost fell asleep in his mashed potatoes. And for some reason katie likes to yell BOOBIES! It's was all cool though.

I'm sleeping awake. Yup. It's a paradox isn't it. Everything feels stupid right now. I don't want to do anything, except goto the Blue Man Group Show on Sat. which is gonna kick ass. There are no good movies out other than Kill Bill right now. There is the Texas Chainsaw Massacre which I really don't have a desire to see anymore. But Kill Bill is always an option to see again. For the 4th time. It's an awesome movie. What can I say? Forget about all the other films out right now. They will all fail in comparasion to Kill Bill. That's right baby. Fail! My movie of the year pick. But don't just take my word for it. See it yourself. It's freaking awesome. But I digress. Blue Man Show Sat. and I'm gonna love it!!! At least I'm 99.99% sure I'm gonna love it. Even if I don't, I'll still have a good time because I haven't hung out with gavin, tiffany, or katie in a while. Good times shall be had. Good Nights to all....BIOTCH

Every see the movie "Children Of The Corn"?? Ya know the one where a diety in the field told the kids of the town to kill all adults to please him. Well, I'm that diety!! When people reach a certain age they should be killed!!! Well, not exactly killed but, have a few freedoms taken away from them, like ya know, driving, talking about their grand kids, SHOPPING!!!! I made a shopping trip to the local meijer today and for whatever reason, every fucking old person had to stop right in front of me!!!! and crowd the isle talking to each other and looking for that milk with the date that went longer than others!!! On top of that they were just lining up asking me to get the cereal of the top self for them, because their old and super short. screw'em! don't need em. they serve no purpose. and if one could find a purpose for them, please let me know!!

Woohoo!! It's only a few days from my 21st b-day and I sold my old car today!!! Yay me!!

My birthday is a week from tomorrow. Presents please!!!!