Wow. I don't know how I feel. I'm definitely not happy. In fact, I don't even know the meaning of the word happy anymore.
Fucked Up is definitely a phrase I'm quite familiar with right now. Everything is fucked up. I know why, but I want reasoning.....I want logic.......I want to know everything.
I'm not the guy I used to be lately. Too much shit has built up inside of me. I've turned into an asshole. But I do not care anymore. I've realized this. But it's ok, because most of the people I associate with are assholes. They know that and they've come to respect that. *To those of you out there that don't consider yourself an asshole, I am sorry. Odds are that you are, but just haven't realized your full potential yet and are being held down by society*
I'm still a little upset over everything right now, but I'm not mad. I'm upset so that means I'll be over it all in about a day or 2, so no big deal, I'll get on with my life.
I do have one freakin' song that I've been listening to all night. The song's about Death, but I find another meaning in it. I'm not just gonna put it into the song of the day section because that wouldn't give it justice. In fact I highly recommend viewing the video here. In the mean time, here are the lyrics.
my immortal
by evanescence
my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
Fucked Up is definitely a phrase I'm quite familiar with right now. Everything is fucked up. I know why, but I want reasoning.....I want logic.......I want to know everything.
I'm not the guy I used to be lately. Too much shit has built up inside of me. I've turned into an asshole. But I do not care anymore. I've realized this. But it's ok, because most of the people I associate with are assholes. They know that and they've come to respect that. *To those of you out there that don't consider yourself an asshole, I am sorry. Odds are that you are, but just haven't realized your full potential yet and are being held down by society*
I'm still a little upset over everything right now, but I'm not mad. I'm upset so that means I'll be over it all in about a day or 2, so no big deal, I'll get on with my life.
I do have one freakin' song that I've been listening to all night. The song's about Death, but I find another meaning in it. I'm not just gonna put it into the song of the day section because that wouldn't give it justice. In fact I highly recommend viewing the video here. In the mean time, here are the lyrics.
my immortal
by evanescence
my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
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